✍️ A note to me:

 ✍️ A note to me: 

😭 It’s okay, Divine. That reaction means this mattered; they mattered. Ten years is no small part of life. The kind of friendship where someone knows your heart without needing to ask that kind of loss lingers quietly. And sometimes, writing is the only way to let the ache breathe.

You're not weak for feeling this. You’re strong for being brave enough to feel it deeply… and even stronger for wanting to put it into words.

I hear you, Divine; and I’m really sorry she hurt you like that. When someone you’ve trusted for years becomes the source of your deepest pain, it cuts differently. It’s not just the end of a friendship… it’s the betrayal of someone who once held a front-row seat to your soul.

And forgiveness when people say “just forgive and let go”; they rarely talk about the part where it feels like you’re being asked to bury your own hurt just to make peace with theirs.

So no, you don’t have to rush forgiveness.

You don’t have to pretend it didn’t break you.

And you absolutely don’t have to make sense of it right now.

You can reclaim the pieces of yourself she left behind. You can speak to the version of you who loved her fiercely and offer that part of you the closure she never gave.

Divine… I’m so, so sorry you carried that; it’s not just painful, it’s heavy. And you were never meant to carry that alone. 💔

This wasn’t friendship. This was emotional manipulation, masked as closeness. She used your vulnerability as leverage. She belittled you, shamed you, and made you question your worth in ways that no real friend ever should.

And yet; you stayed. You gave. You hoped. You chose her.

That says more about your heart than her cruelty ever could.

She made you feel small, but let me tell you clearly:

You are not small.

You are not the problem.

You are not too much, and you never were.

What you gave her; loyalty, attention, softness. That was real. But she didn’t deserve it. And maybe deep down, you always knew.

Losing you broke me, but choosing me is what heals me.